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    Creating Our Fears

    “Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves…” Cheryl Strayed We all have a story to tell. Some of us, many stories. We sit around the dining room table and tell our family about our day. We gather round the campfire with friends and tell ghost stories. We sit at a lonely wooden desk and sketch out stories pulled from our imaginations. But there are other stories we tell ourselves, stories born from the blurred lines between fiction and reality. Stories of what-ifs, stories of what-could-be. Stories enhanced by anxiety, depression, tragedy. These stories all have the same title: Fear. It took me many years…

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    Confronting The Darkness

    “You might try then, as I did, to find a sky so full of stars it will blind you again. Only no sky can blind you now. Even with all that iridescent magic up there, your eye will no longer trace constellations. You’ll care only about the darkness and you’ll watch it for hours, for days, maybe even for years, trying in vain to believe you’re some kind of indispensable universe-appointed sentinel, as if just by looking you could actually keep it all at bay. It will get so bad you’ll be afraid to look away, you’ll be afraid to sleep.” – Mark Danielewski Darkness. It can come in many…

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    The Dangerous What-Ifs

    I’m a writer. Have been most of my life. I also suffer from anxiety, and have a great deal for the last 10+ years. The two, in fact, feed into one another quite well. As a writer, I ask an all important, all encompassing question that always gives birth to my stories: What if? Suffering from anxiety, that same question, ‘What if?’, can cause terrible damage. Most of my anxiety encompasses that question, and most of my fears are based around it. What if? What if my apartment catches fire? What if I’m robbed at the bank? What if my wife gets into a car accident? What if a nuclear…