• Divorce,  Faith,  Featured,  life

    Intentional Weakness

    “Intentional living is the art of making our own choices before others’ choices make us.” Richie Norton It started with the divorce. And it seems to have continued with unintentional acts of procrastination, haggardness, and dismal outlook. Continuing my revelations about how divorce has affected me and what the future (God’s plan) holds for me, I came to another realization this last week. I realize I have succumbed to the very worst obstacle to walking out my destiny – my weakness of being unintentional. As if a prophecy had years ago been uttered about how my life would turn out, I’ve allowed fate – life – to determine what has…

  • Featured

    Passion’s Thief

    Have you lost your passion? Have you let depression and complacency rule your spirit? Have you let the enemy take all that is dear to you without a proper fight? Then it's time that you too rise from the ashes. It's time that you too remember why you started down this road. No journey ever began in a vacuum. It began with passion toward something. Toward a vision. Toward a future.

  • Divorce,  life

    The Shattered Pieces

    When things fall apart, the broken pieces allow all sorts of things to enter, and one of them is the presence of God. – Shauna Niequist Denial. It’s a poison that many of us like to carry around with us, and it is something that can kill our dreams, those around us, even ourselves if we’re not careful. Unfortunately, denial is the poison I sipped upon for months after my divorce. I thought I was okay. I thought it wasn’t affecting me very much. And that’s the beauty of denial – it’s able to seep down into the deepest roots of our being, blind us to the truth, and destroy…

  • Writing

    Small Sacrifices

    The receptionist at the front desk wore a long white lab coat, but Brittany doubted she was a doctor. Or a nurse. Or in any way related to the medical field. She carried a bit of weight in her stomach and cheeks, and she smelled like wildflower-scented soap. Her scent was much like that of Brittany’s grandmother, and it made Brittany want to throw up. Just show me where to sign. The clipboard rose over the counter like a starship and landed in front of Brittany’s trembling hands. She noticed her black nail polish had chipped on several fingers. She couldn’t remember the last time she had painted them. She…

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    Leaving The Mountaintop

    “The praise and glorification of God doesn’t exclusively spring from deep and untroubled understanding; it is in spite of – and even because of – deep and troubled circumstance.” Joyce Rachelle I tend to cling to the mountaintops of life. I love the view, the fresh air, the feeling of being so high up above my daily issues. I can regain my focus on the mountaintop, recalibrate my life, my goals, and my attitude. The mountaintop is a sanctuary, safe from crisis and anxiety and the complexities of life. It is a place to grow closer to God… Many of us cling to the mountaintop as if it were a…

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    One In Seven Thousand

    Dark times abound. Our worlds crumble around us. Friends betray their morals, family turns on us. Those who used to surround us in their encouragement and faith have turned away from God and now pursue the siren’s song of sinful impulses and false doctrine. The Word is no longer followed, men (and women) become lovers of self, and the pillars of integrity and faith are destroyed in an effort to become ‘free’ of religious constraints. Have you ever experienced times like these? Maybe now, maybe in the past? It’s in these times that I personally feel like a minority. I feel alone. Not physically alone. Spiritually alone. Those who walked…

  • life

    Confronting The Darkness

    “You might try then, as I did, to find a sky so full of stars it will blind you again. Only no sky can blind you now. Even with all that iridescent magic up there, your eye will no longer trace constellations. You’ll care only about the darkness and you’ll watch it for hours, for days, maybe even for years, trying in vain to believe you’re some kind of indispensable universe-appointed sentinel, as if just by looking you could actually keep it all at bay. It will get so bad you’ll be afraid to look away, you’ll be afraid to sleep.” – Mark Danielewski Darkness. It can come in many…

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    The Danger Of Faith

    Faith. Society has changed the meaning of the word to resemble something akin to wishful thinking. I have faith it will rain today. I have faith I’ll get that job promotion. I have faith I’ll meet someone new. But faith isn’t confined to our wishful thinking. Faith is dangerous trust. Faith is putting our trust in a God of dangerous things. A God who wants the best for us, but also wants the best for His kingdom. Exhibiting faith is exhibiting absolute trust, it is falling backward into the arms of an unseen entity with confidence He will catch us. Exhibiting faith is stepping foot on a path wrought with…

  • Writing

    The Dangerous What-Ifs

    I’m a writer. Have been most of my life. I also suffer from anxiety, and have a great deal for the last 10+ years. The two, in fact, feed into one another quite well. As a writer, I ask an all important, all encompassing question that always gives birth to my stories: What if? Suffering from anxiety, that same question, ‘What if?’, can cause terrible damage. Most of my anxiety encompasses that question, and most of my fears are based around it. What if? What if my apartment catches fire? What if I’m robbed at the bank? What if my wife gets into a car accident? What if a nuclear…